i learnt to be so strong when i realised how different i am from others. being different is what people have always craved to be. but i don't know if i want to be. i don't want to feel such a discrepancy between my world and the world. i've never felt such great discordance before. i keep trying to venture into the world, but i stumble and fall each time, only to return, frightened and so confused, seeking refuge in my world. and it dragged on. for months and then, a year. and i'm deflated. so i went out there and did what i had to do. feeling helpless and out of place, my thoughts screaming at me, "this is all wrong" the whole time. but i don't think my thoughts have a place on earth. i don't think i have a place on earth. my body does and all that comes with the fact of my existence. i just tune thoughts out. and be normal just like others. to live life.
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