someday,
you'll realise that the people who you thought understand you best,
don't.

it's so strange that although we are aware that
no one can ever understand any one entirely,
it still hurts when you experienced and felt that.

how do you "measure" how much you feel about something?
what i feel for you will never be the same as what you feel for me.

how do you "measure" love?
how much is i love you?
how much is i love you very much?
how can we even say i love you more that you love me and vice versa,
when it is almost impossible to tell?

you'll only know when you feel it.
but feeling or experiencing something
aren't scientifically-proven devices to gauge anything.

but i just feel it.
and how could we feel something out of no reason?

but i can't say how i feel.
you can never explain how you feel a particularly way.
you can only define the triggers to that emotion,
but how you feel
still remains undefinable.

how can someone define how it feels to fear heights?
they can say perhaps triggers like having experienced something bad related to that before,
it became a phobia.
but how do they describe how it feels to feel this phobia or fear when they encounter great heights?
some people might feel that the reason of having undergone a bad experience is not enough
to explain why they have this phobia?
but do they understand how it is like to feel what the person had felt during the bad incident?
isn't it a whole experiencing of something so strong,
that it can't be defined in any way?
what more explaining it to a person who can't understand how it felt like exactly.

alone is such a sad word.
but alone wouldn't have such a sad connotation
when you've gotten used to being alone all the time.
cos when you've gotten used to being alone all the time,
how would you know what it means to be alone.

losing your bearings
or the experiencing of disorientation is a frightening feeling.