Wednesday, April 21, 2010

hmmm..
i'm like having my break b4 exams now.
kinda like got to work on my final essay for this semester n study for exams..
but i cant seem to get down to doing either.
tried reading my readings,
but they're so profoundly confusing, i just feel like its taking so much of my brain cells just to decipher what every sentence means.
pooh! :(

i cant really complain much yea?
it's like i chose to major in literature.
but even though studying literature is really difficult,
i've never regretted my choice.
i may have said this ten thousand times,
but i'll still say this again..

literature is to me, the best subject.
i've learnt so much from it that i'm really thankful for the way it changed my perception about life as well as contributing significantly to the way i'm able to express myself through words and poetry (ahh.. shy! :p).
it taught me the importance of language and how to determine one's intention behind one's choice of words and tone.
it taught me to think out of the box.
you wouldn't know how amazing it is to hear so many different point-of-views with justifications.
its really enlightening some times.

and you who encouraged me to major in literature,
thank you for supporting me even when everyone else were against it.
you played a significant role in my life.
that's probably why i can't agree with what you are suggesting now.
well, i dunno.
shall discuss this another time, soon after my exams.

i've been thinking a lot lately.
like how everybody's life is different from one another.

last monday, i woke up feeling really tired and moody for i've slept late that night from doing an essay. then, my brother told me he lost his iphone in a taxi. he was upset and i really could feel for him, just tt i was so tired, my brain wasn't functioning n i was speechless. he bought the phone like less than a month ago n was really happy. he bought it with his own money. also, he had been using the same phone since his poly days and only decided to change after his ns. that's why i felt so sad for him, cos he really deserved his phone n im so pissed with whoever who took it. don't you get it? the pain from losing smth you really treasure? don't you have the decency to return it to its rightful owner? shame on you for having lack integrity. seriously! i know how it feels cos i've lost mine b4. it was the first phone i bought with my own money too! ahhh.. so so upsetting! :(

i know many people would say that they'll probably take the phone too, if they found it. if you really think that way, i've really got nothing to say. cos i would return it if i've found one. in fact, hanna, mirah n i found one in our sch canteen and we did return it. so dun even think of saying i would take it if i found one too, cos who would be so stupid not to take it. if you're really that self-centred, don't try to give excuses and baseless judgement on others, for not everyone is like you.
im sorry if im venting my anger here. i just feel so sad for my brother.

anw, so after my brother told me that news, i went on my way to sch. while walking to the mrt station, i heard this lady crying. i looked up and saw this couple, the lady is behind trying to reach for the guy's hand, he's a short distance in front of her. they were both walking quickly as the guy tried to brush off her hand. den as they walked passed me, i heard the girl saying something like why must you ask for a break-up in mandarin. at that moment, i really felt sorry for that girl. she was crying badly and was almost helpless as she reaches out to that guy, but he just brushed her off like she was totally insignificant. how could someone be so heartless. she's crying in public, you know. even if you want to ask for a break-up, do it in a more discreet place and spare your partner the embarrassment. well, i may not know the story behind their break-up. but i just felt sorry for that lady, i mean, that's not the right way to treat a girl righttt. :(

so i had been thinking, if i did feel sorry for myself for having lack sleep from doing my essay, other people out there might have been facing a worse situation than mine. while i could be experiencing somewhat an ordinary day, someone out there could be trying to deal with the death of a love one, or mayb a break-up or losing one's job, etc..

in this unfeeling world, we probably need to empathise with others.
you cannot lead your life in your own world,
for you can never escape human relations.
mayb only then, can this world really be a better place.

hmmm.. so much about emoing at night,
when i shud have been reading my readings...

[sorry for this long post! read if you are interested. if not just ignore it! :) ]