i lost my laptop yesterday.
couldnt tink of anything the min i realised that.
all i know was to run
to where i was from.

reached the place.
closed.
panting.
ppl were calling.
i couldnt rmb where i left it.

the toilet or the cafe?

finally,
reported to the security.

one said,
"u left it there due to your own negligence."

thanks. tt really helped reduce my anxiety.

another said,
"calm down. i really understand. there's so much information in your laptop huh? don't worry, we'll get to you immediately once we hear any news of it."

couldnt stop tinking bout it.
wat a time to happen.
the week b4 my exams?
my lecture notes, essays n everything?
knowing that it's my own fault for leaving it behind.
despite being so careful most of the times.
its bloody unfair, but still, i only got myself to blame.

i lost my handphone once.
loved it so much.
but what i treasured most wasnt just the phone.
but the contents in the phone.
cried for all the words inside.
for all the msges u sent and all the notes and poems i wrote.
all lost forever.

its happening again.
i've a folder, things i'll nv say.
in it are things i've always wanted to tell u and somebody,
but these, i'll nv say.

and now,
these will nv b said.

wanted to tel u all this.
needed someone to talk to.
knowing that u, unlike the rest, would be willing to hear.
wouldnt say things that does nothing but hurt others.
to be sensitive, to have compassion.
cos i thought u know me better than others do.

but its okay.
its over.
gone through a lot
n i finally found it.
dont ever wanna go through this again.

losses.
if it doesn't hurt the most, it leaves a scar.
one that pains each time u think of it.

the pain will fade, definitely, with time.
but it will nv b gone forever.
cantdealwithlossesanymore.