quite a number of things happened. i dun tink im gonna say everything.
its quite an unforgetable cny. n im not sure if i regretted going to home club on mon.. in fact, i saw another side of me. the side which is vulnerable n incontrollable. it kind of strengthened my belief tt everyone has so many sides to them. i tink sometimes we dun even recognise ourselves. will we ever reconcile these many diferences to become the one n only u? or are we the way we are cos of our inherent differences, tts y we're different from others? anw, i saw smth even greater. the care from others when i was in that very uncomfortable state. really. u dun know how it feels like when u're surrounded by superficial ppl, ppl who dun really care, tt when those who really do, does smth like tt, the care becomes so obvious. i love u all seriously. tt's y i tink i wouldnt regret going, besides the endless puking, those unslightly photos n my permanent exposure. =p
consecutive nights n im totally exhausted. today, im not going to move. seriously. my bones ache n i feel like shit. i've got no appetite for like 3 days. i've finally got to sleep on my bed. laze in it for hours. i hate to say this. but i feel depressed. for no obvious reason. i bet its the sum of many reasons tt i cant find the root of it.
anw, i dun wan to go sch. cny's not over yet.
y cant life b free n easy without darn responsibilities n obligations. y cant life b just bout urself n tt u dun need to tink bout others or how ur actions affect them. cant life be just beautifully happy. y cant we all live in denial.
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