Tuesday, August 12, 2008

here's a summary of what i've been up to lately.
:)

i've stopped working for a long time.
that's cos i've started school.
im really happy cos i've got into the sch that i really wan n to study the courses that im interested in!

anyway,
last week was orientation week.
i was sick so i couldnt really participate in all the events.
i went for the last activity which was 'rag day', and had fun cheering for my faculty n watching the dance performances.
i was baked though. like seriously.
i've always loved dance n i didnt know charlie didnt knew til today. =p

i missed two weeks of gym cos im sick too.
arghhhhhhhhh.
which also means that i didnt c eechin for two weeks.
ahhh. i miss her! :)
but i'll be going tmr! yay!

anw,
eechin sent me a mail with this really cute 'me to u' bear keychain!
the sweetest was that it was like a two part keychain, she took one part n gave the other to me!=p
so sweet la!
im so touched.
n its been damn long since i received mails from frens!
haha.
eechin, thanks so much!!
i really love it!

hmmm.
been talking to charlie today.
we've like not contacted for bout a mth. super long.
i really missed him.
we talked about music.
its like the soul of this relationship between us.
cos its in him that i found someone i can share my love for music with.
someone who feels passionate like u do.
someone who understands u.
in actual fact, it seems like he is the only one who supports my pursuit of my dreams.
its so wonderful.
to hav someone encouraging u, someone who shields u from all discouragement, someone behind u who catches u when u fall.
i know im too emotional about what i really love.
am i a dreamer?

im taking subjects from the arts.
eng lit, theatre studies, etc. all so beautiful. but in the eyes of others, impractical. i've followed my interest in these subjects n gone all out for it, in contrary to what others would have chosen for: practicality. i once told my mum, 'i'll die for my dreams.' i would choose doing smth i like n earn just enough to support my family over doing practical jobs n earn lots of money. it just seems so sad that ppl nowadays prioritise money over everything else including their interests that actually defines their individuality.

i know this person, he's a great artist. really.
that's wat i'll call him. cos he draws really well. great imagination, with a flair in english. he's really made for the arts. totally. he sings relly well too.
initially, he studied the arts. but he gave it up for some other course, as it guarantees to earns more money in the future.
i think its a total waste.
he's so incredibly creative.
someone filled with the potential to accomplish his dreams.
but he gave it up.
could he too be tainted with the desire for money?
no.
in my opinion, he's more likely stunned by the reality of the practical world that forces him to succumb n acknowledges this world as..
a world that doesnt coexist with dreams.
a world that runs on the unemotional, the practical.
a world that doesnt allow u the time to follow ur dreams.
u run so fast unsteadily all the time, u dun even hav the time to stop n regain composure.
to look ard u n take in the beauty surrounding u.
to embrace the natural n ur individuality, ur gift.

will i be like that 7yrs down the road.
someone who's exposed to the harshness of reality, n the influence of the desire for money?

cos i dun wan to be like tat.
i wan to be me.
iknowuwouldbproudofme.
butijustwanttohearitfromupersonally.