working, u get to.. wake up early, squeeze with the crowd, rush for work, learn COMPLICATED procedures, MEMORISE stuffs u dun wan to, face DEMANDING customers, stand till ur legs ache, eat ur meals ALONE, get squashed in the mrt, walk home with CRUSHED toes, n sometimes wounds if u're unlucky.
just to get a measly few dollars.
im sorry im complaining. cos sometimes i feel, mayb if i stay at home every single day, i dun spend money, den there's no need to finance anything! haha.
but its not so simple.
ineedlotsofcare. =pespeciallywhenufeelneglected.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 12:25 AM
Monday, January 21, 2008
3 days. n its enough to turn me off.
i've nv dislike my job.
mayb studying is much better. cositswithoutdarnobligations.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 9:06 PM
Thursday, January 17, 2008
whew. tired. legs aching. haha.
stil, im so happy! got lots of things to say! haha. though selfishly, they're bout me. to the girls n zac! :D mayb they'll be happy for me? =p
one more thing! boys like girls is simply SEXY. i cant help it! hahahaha. the vocals is GOOD. watch, boys like girls - The great escape. the lead singer is so natural! oh god. music fuels my blood. so i get extremely HIGH. YAY!
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 11:41 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
woo! today's quite wonderful! haha.
went to my cousin's 1 mth old baby celebration. so many babies there. haha. den my cousin said i look like my eldest bro. n another of my cousin said i look like his fren. it reminds me. i look like a lot of ppl. i had ppl telling me tat i look like my dad since young, n in sec schs till now, they said i look exactly like my mum. in jc, i had this stranger coming to me saying "do u hav a cousin who studies in ...". oh man. when can i look just like myself.
anyway, after that, we met up wif the girls! haha. we had yummy crabs for dinner n durians for supper?? haha. i hadn't had durians in mths! n i nv ate them out of the comfort of my home. haha. kinda unsightly. =p wif dirty n smelly fingers. haha.
also, we planned to hav ultra yummy waffles wif ice cream next time! hahaha! :D i cant wait for that! n our regular sports activities! this comes right after our ultra guilty durian feast. ah, u know. =p
STILL, the day hasn't end. we waited for the lift to come after i pressed the button. then, the lift door opened n i heard a slight bang. i halted n hesitated if i shud enter the lift. n the next thing i knew was a HUGE RAT fell to the bottom of the lift with a loud BANG! its bigger than the size of my palm. i screamed n watched it ran round the lift before it dashed out of the door. wat an experience. the year of the rat?? or mouse?
nnnnn. oh god. i miss zac. he's gone for ns. but he replied today! YAY! i know its very tedious in there. thats y i worry for u. :( but stil, i nv stop tinking of u! especially when its raining. =p so, bringontherain. :D
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 12:14 AM
Monday, January 07, 2008
blogs are like windows. ppl keep staring n probing into matters which are personal n kept at heart. especially ppl who search for ur areas of vulnerability n uses them to their benefit. u dun give them that chance. though, they also serve as a means of connection to ur closer ones. so u could always be kept updated with wats ard them. thats wat my blog is for. to only them.
so i dun say much. only wat i ought to say. n only to ppl who are the closest.
sometimesitshardtotellwhoucouldtrust.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 4:44 PM
Thursday, January 03, 2008
hmmm. anw, these few days made me realise smth. wonder if anyone cares for u the same way u 'waiting' is terrible. do for them? the act of waiting. dun think bout it. disgusting. the only time they'll care is when ur dead. cos thats when they'll treasure u cos they cant ok. get enough of u. now that i've been on my first mrt trip this yr, in life, u learn a lot of things. the fare scares me like shit. (it stil does) the most impt lesson is dun give so much. its $1.50 from amk to wdls. cos when u give too much n others dun give a its sends a msg. damn, just 'dun travel.' it breaks ur heart. mayb the car would be a better mode of so to prevent it from breaking, transport, considering the cram situation in dun give them that chance. the trains too.
charlie, if u could hear me or feel this. i'll care for u till the end of time. cos u're worth it.
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