they say 'no man is an island'. but, wat if the man chooses to be an island? he could try.
man is the root of all evil.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 3:46 PM
great. im stil in the state of being broke. esp when its the christmas season too. haha.
anyway, Merry Christmas! for christmas this yr, like last yr, we celebrated at huiming's place. it was really warm. like everyone were so comfy n we slacked, snacked, drinked, played cards, mahjong, watch tv. exchange presents too! haha. having real good frens make u feel like ur belonged. n we LAUGHED a lot too. or nayb its just me. haha. who cares! we all had fun. :D but, without weiling, definitely is different. i really miss her coz we din really get to meet up recently. anyway, to weiling, i really hope ur ok. coz no matter how cliche this sounds, its stil true, coz we'll always be there for u, if ever u needs us. stay strong n happy. :)
hmmm. im being random but i stil gotta say this! i really love the song 'teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift'. its so beautiful. haha. n addictive. although i used to tink that its not really nice.
oh man. close guy frens r all going army in jan. thats cos i only got a few. haha. but stil, its sad.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 3:30 AM
Sunday, December 16, 2007
oh god. everything becomes attractive when u dun hav money. damn.
yesterday was terrible besides the wonderful mcr concert.
cheryl n i rushed for the bus to take us to tampines b4 we switch over to the mrt to expo for the concert. our ezlink had no money, so had to use coins. the dumb bus driver said that we paid too little for the trip. we told him we were jc students and stil had the student concession until the end of dec, if im not wrong. n he keep arguing that poly students hav to pay full adult fare. then i told him again, we r jc students n our concession is till the end of dec. ok. first, let me say this. i have nothing against poly students ok. most of my frens r in poly n im an na student. so u get it. he refused to believe n demanded us to tap our cards on the card reader to c if we're lying. we tapped the cards n he got nothing to say. dumbass.
next, we planned to have dinner at subway, which is in telepark at tampines. we alighted at the busstop n were lost. so, had to give up our plan to eat at subway n go to tampines mall instead. we decided to eat at yoshi. n this inexperience girls was taking out orders n stuffs. im not implying anything. i was inexperienced once n it sucks like shit. the girl next to her was somehow reluctant to teach her in fact. i could tel that she was feeling uncomfortable. so we were patient. really patient. den i realised she short-changed me. its alright. nvm. i told her that she gave me the wrong amt of change. she stared at me completely blur. i had to repeat myself n she stil dun get it. den the girl n boy next to her asked me wats going on n i had to fucking repeat myself again. damn. their service is not good. really. the girl n boy next to her could even fool ard at the counter. u get it?
nvm. we headed towards expo n finally reached the max pavilion. we just hang ard at the tables somewhere near. our moods were like somehow affected, we got pissed over minor stuffs n had a small quarrel. damn. n she walked away. at that time. my mood was like 3/4 shit. really. then, it was bout near to 8pm, the starting time. had to squeeze our way thru the crowds n everything. den there was this little boy. he was right behind me, he pushed n pushed. there was no way in front that i can move, so he was practically pushing for nothing. nvm. i was really tolerant. until he pushed me n i hit the barriers. he pretended like nothing happened. idiot. n continued pushing. until his father even said to him smth like this in chinese ' boy, dun hurry, we stil got time, etc.' even his father knew he was pushing w/o reason. shit right? lets just assume that he is young n immature. really. nothing more could happen that can affect my mood any further.
we finally got in n got our seats. we were sitting at the $85 section. they mention that that area would be elevated coz its right behind the free standing. n i tel u. the elevated platform was not anything higher than 15cm. wat elevation is that really. its freaking stupid. n we like somhow regretting that we din go for the free standing one, coz the stage was ridiculously far, even though i was on the fourth row nearest to the free standing. middle seats even. n right b4 me was this control area thing with a BIG camera. so it practically blocked my view of the stage. its so stupid right? the whole thing. the arrangement n stuffs. i cant believe it. it took near to an hour b4 the concert could begin man. bout an hour late of its starting time. this whole thing is officially a mess.
only the concert is good. mcr is good, in fact fantastic. coz they're my favs n im looking thru this thru a biased pt of view. :) i dun care. i love them like crazy. but not as crazy as some diehard fans. i see a lot of ppl in black. n its really cool, coz black is the colour man. some came dressed in pink. can u imagine? nvm. im not commenting further. some even painted their face, it was really cool. the whole thing. especially the lighting n stuffs. n of coz mcr themselves. =p oh ya. i forgot to mention. the crowds were singing along with them. can u imagine? their fans know their lyrics. oh man. the scene is so heartwarming. lalalalaaaaaaa~
it ended too fast though. sad. but i truely understand. they came here like 8 plus n its was the security system that slowed the whole thing. but security is necessary, i understand. cher's frens who were in the free standing area told us that standing there wasn't as good as it seems. they said many got elbowed n punched n stuffs. pushing here n there. it was too much to take even. one of cher's fren accidentally elbowed this person behind him i guess n his or her fren held him at his neck. all this unnecessary violence. it got me thinking. this was supposed to be a celebration. a celebration of our common interest n love in smth beautiful. y is there a need to get angry wif each other when it was not on purpose. dun tel me bout that stupid little boy. he pushed on purpose. definitely. nevertheless, its was a great experience. n i would definitely go for the free standing if they ever come again. woooooo. i love them! :D
i've bought some stuffs there too. it is expensive, really. to me. but its worth the money. its common that ppl walk in then out of our lives. but y has it got to b u.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 3:20 PM
Sunday, December 09, 2007
heyy. its a miracle experiencing this period of absolute freedom. im totally BORED. freak bored.
i've been sleeping for a ridiculously impossible amount of time. n spending every other waking hour eating or enjoying entertainment.
i've been totally caught up in this 'the other world' thing. totally. being involved in the fantasy world of 'enchanted', completely consumed into this magical world of 'fate stay night', being shocked by the reality of terrorism in 'the kingdom', completely suspended in the world of extraordinary powers owned by individuals in 'heroes', n last but not least, experiencing the world of 'the golden compass'. leaving me to make this completely irrational wish 'i do want a wolf badly'. u know, the spirits as animal demons thing in the movie.
its amazing. trully. being totally caught up in the unrealistic makes u wonder wat is the realistic.
im starting to question myself on doing the realistic thing now n not spend my time with nothing in mind. i need a job. n i need to pursue my dreams. i need to wake up n stop doing nothing.
but i want a dramatic break off or something. i need something to tel me that i've got over the exams n that now, its the period of my life 'after the exams'. i want to leave this place. go on a holiday or smth. which is ridiculously opposed or as it seems totally irrational.
need to start life 'anew'. as if u've been revitalised, recharged. overwhelmed with energy. i need that to regenerate the dead me. all that aside, im sooooo happy. im finally able to c my fav mcr. totally ecstatic bout it. :)
oh yeah. white choc is going to b back on the 12th. great. :)