anyway, im pretty boredd. btw, i said i LOVE Fridays. lalala~ but my friday today is a boring one. hang ard in the canteen on the false impression of studying. just hadn't the mood to study today. argh.
actually, come to think of it, i cant rmb wat had occupied me this week. so what had i done during my free times. oh my godd. i cant rmb.
anyway, i tink thats becos im thinking of him. noooo. sometimes being in luv isn't a wonderful thing. mayb it consists more of pain? or is it just that u met the wrong person?
hmmm. dun like to be waiting. keep waiting. endlessly. i've melted away.
dust on the floor.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 8:35 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
hmmm. actually, i dunno wat to blog. but anyway, i tot by giving a summary of wat happened the past fews days would be great.
On mon. got to sch wif the got-so-used to it reluctance. had pe. we played softball. bleah. i wanna play floorball or soccer. anyway, i tot i had better run, since i haven been exercising for long. ran 1 round at quite a fast speed and im nearly tired. omg. den i ran during softball too. anyway, we won! haha luv my team. sooooo ON! after that, i went wif wei ting and wei ling to support huiming in her volleyball comp. they were really great! haha. and. this is the worst part. we got on our way to tampines mall. but as usual, silly us took the wrong bus and headed all the way to jalan basar, if im not wrong in spelling. ard little india that side. arghh. anyway, we walked to sim lim for dinner and went to bugis station to head home. i got home bout 10 plussss.
for the next few days, nothing much really happen. i was more stoned den ever. couldnt wait to finish sch. and when sch's ended, i'll head straight home and sleep or use the com. perhaps im addicted. argh. was suffering from perpetual headache. :( i need love.
mayb i've gotten it. coz sweet charlie sent me really lovely msges that really brightened up my day. also, i told sharon and jo bout my sudden reluctance towards studies. i tink there's something wrong wif me. anyway. they were really nice and told me not to worry so much. thanksss!! :) next, my best zoo land said that we mayb going singing on sat! haha.. seriously, im so happy, as long as i get out of this melancholy. save me.
i've seen heart-shaped petals fallen everywhere but not in my hands.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 6:57 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
great. i've had like sooo many hours of sleep. homework not done AGAIN. booooooo..
anyway, today's so so. jus hadn't the motivation to do anything. i tink ther's someting wrong inside me. mayb the heart doesn't feel anything anymore. or is it the whole of me, dead?
anyway, im not burdened. i've probably killed my guardian angel in the process. melancholy is the poison. i tink he, (i'll like to think of my angel being a 'he') took the burden for me. my sacrifice.
kor went army. daddy's going indonesia. the heart died out of never-ending waiting. cher has disappoint me again.
i tink i cant open up to cher anymore. dun ask me y. i just cant.
i'll like to believe that there's still this miracle yet to happen. that there is still light. that my eyes will not bleed from pain again.
for i'll stil shine. mayb tmr? half a yr later? 10 years down the road? or mayb when im gone.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 12:16 AM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
whewww.. one tiring day is over.
anyway, i had fun, sooooo. YA :P
luv the way u care bout me. :)
was out wif the guys and wei ling to celebrate kelvin's bday. it was so last min laa. but anyway, its the tot that counts. weiling bought him a lovely fruit cake from breadtalk. not to mention the discount. but its still ex cannnn.
den we went to party world to singg. (shud rephrase that.) we went to party world to hear kelvin sing. haha. the other guys did sing too. me and weiling did one song each. mine reminded me of the old memories. arghhh.
anyway, after that, went to meet cher to look for some stuffs. wif weiling too of coz! :) and by the time we reached orchard, i was looking like a dead bird. seriously. im so worn out. and my hair is in a mess. argh. searched the stuffs for a LONG time. finally, we got on our way home. hah. slept on the train. anyway, i tink i looked my ugliest today. shucks. unglam. (who cares)
now, im back here. and im waiting...... (again.) :(
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 12:51 AM
Friday, July 13, 2007
im fumingg. arghhh.
today's a bad day to begin wiff. seriously.
my lovely friday. :(
i was really upset. i dun deserve that kind of treatment. im not there for her to vent her anger on. it happened so many times. and i didn't even do anything to make her angry. tis sucks.
initially, i tot it happened only once in a while. sometimes she just ignore me or mayb get angry wif me. seriously, im alright wif tat. i tot mayb u were stressed or something.
den it happened again today. wth. tell me what hav i done to make u so pissed. and i tel u. i dun deserve this kinda treatment.
den. when i was like stucked in the canteen, not knowing wat to do. i felt somewhat helpless. i needed someone there. but nobody. i was looking for cher. but she was having lessons. i msged charlie. i really missed him. he replied. but when i told him i wanna talk to him. he stopped replying.
wat do u mean. thanks for letting me c ur true colours. u said u'll b ther. only when u need me right? u're just like the others.
im happy wif life now. i've got my family, my beloved sis, my lovely zoo land, my jc frens, a sickening guy i tink im infatuated wif, and stupid charlie.
life's great isn't it?
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 8:04 PM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
:( :( bad mooddd.. arghh
had just finished the CCA/CIP acheivement thing. its like writing essay. except that u gotta praise urself like crazy la. apotheosis?? arghh. anyway, im bad at that. yuccckkkss. anyway, i know that by writing that, its beneficial for all of us, so, i shall just stop complaininggg. :)
welll. im really angry at that somebody. u know wat. im gonna emphasize. "Sarcasm is the lowest form of wit" by Carole Matthews in her bk, Welcome to the Real World. how true.
students DESERVE RESPECT too.
u know, there are so many nice teachers that i have known. in WRS, there's Miss Tang, Mrs Tan, Mr Loh, Mr Chong, etc.. and in IJC, there's Miss Baey, Miss Margaret Ng, etcc. so many nice teachers who really deserve our respect. seriously.
but in contrary, there are people who really really need to reflect on their actions. really. tat person who tainted innocence. wif her damn attitude. let me tell u, u suck.
come on. u shud b matured enough. u dun need someone like me to tel u tis. go reflect on ur disgraceful attitude. U DUN DESERVE MY RESPECT.
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 1:13 AM
Friday, July 06, 2007
yayyyy!!!
changed new blog add and skin.
its really pretty and im sooo in lurv wif it! =p
anyway, had a 'great' time rearranging everything. well.
it was worth it! :)
just ended our prelims recently. super tiring.
tink insomnia is a regular fren of mine.
it was kinda demoralising.
knowing now that the exams are over, result's on its way to frighten people.
got back my gp marks today.
guess wat!
i just passed. really just meet the mark la.
its so crappy. (i mean my capability)
anyway, now, passing is something worth celebrating already!
yay!! =p
anyway, i wanna share sexy My Chemical Romance's pics on this wonderful occasion. haha
Its so niceee!! haha. i really love them super much. although im not really aware of much info bout them. but their songs are really great, i swear. take a look at their song lyrics. its so meaningful. furthermore, with Gerard's emotional voice, the songs are just sooo beautifully crafted.
http://herblacksmudgedfingers.imeem.com/playlist/R5k4tL-H/
