guess what! today's Friday! and u know wat fridays mean?? sleeeppppppppp~ wooo! =p
ok. im just being lame. coz i've got nothing to say.. :( waaaAaaaaa...
why am i bloggingg? coz Jo said tat i din updateee...??? haha i did cannnnnn....
ok... let me complainnnnnn. welll. stressed arrr. this week is crazy. i dunno why. shud be gd righttt? coz ther's CNY. but visiting is tiringg. and after all that visiting, we dun hav time to finish homework. and its procrastination again. its freaking irritating. when u know that u wan to hand in ur work on time but its impossibLe!! for goodness sake, its a total of 4 essays to hand in by Fri. eeeeeeeeeee... at least i managed to complete two. yay~ better than nothing. :)
next week is craziness. we practically hav tests every single day except Fri. can u c???? its total madness. and its ECONS. noooooooooooooooo.. im bad at econs. no matter how hard i try. :( and LIT, wonderful. my fav sub. but my english is freaking weak. so lousyyyy.. aiyo. stop complainingg.. lalala~ i must study!!!!
see, how Fri is singled out!! hahaa. told u Fridays are sexyyyyyy.. lalala. wanted to watch movie today. :( but nobody wanna watch wif me. haha. coz cher's having hockey practice. anyway, i din even ask anyone. -_-'' hahaha. so i only hav myself to blameee...
yesterday, we did something like a career thing. determines our choice of career in the future. Mr Yeo asked every single one of us bout our choice of career. i was actually stunned myself. coz i dun hav any career in mind. it like. 18 years of age and i dun even have any goal in mind. we dun hav a choice. studies became a basic necessity. but has anyone questioned the need for education except the fact tat it ensures a job in the future? its so practical and superficial. i've always assumed that career shud be related to our interests so that working is fun and not basically just to fulfil the need for supporting oneself. im so sad. just feel that im not suited for studying. i've always wanted to go for my interests which is dancing and singing. :( but im not fortunate enough. but being stucked in a route which u dun really hav interest in is draining all my energy. :( ok. shut up. bleah.
Zac, i miss u. :( Zoo Land and James, i miss u all tooo. Anyway, Wei Ling said there might be another chalet. wooo~~ haha. im excited! she also said that we might be going for a movie next week!! hahahah. so happyyy. i luv my frenss. u guys are the best!
anyway, kor said that we're going for a movie laterrr.. so happyyy! finalllyyyyyy.. yay~~~~~~ =p
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 8:45 PM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
wOooo~~ i haven't been blogging for agess.. haha. so it meansss, there's more to say.. well, whether its good or bad, i leave it up to anyone who reads this ok? if its boring, just switch to another websitee.. :)
hmmm.. shall start wif the most recent ok?? thats the New Year.. wOoo~ seriously speaking, i've really spent a lot of $$ tis yr on clothes and stuffs. but i lurv the things i've bought! haha. cant help it man! i havent been shopping for soooo long. i even lost track of the last thing i bought. dong~ but nvm.. its a new start to a wonderful year ahead! i got lovely navy baggg~~ lalala. know ur jealousss.. heh heh. ok. im crazy. well, went visiting. but im seriously bored. i dunno y. but nvm.
Kiki's chalet. i went on fri! haha. was extremely late, due to the sudden rush to get new year clothes. we bought a cute present too. hmm.. we had bbq. well, not really one. but James cooked everything tat we ate! so sweet rightt?? amazing... James, i dun care. i've gotta say this. ur the best god-bro one can ever have. and seriously, im so proud of u. ur so strong despite whatever that had happened. and i wan u to know, everything will turn out just fine. its cliche, but im gonna say i'll always be here for u. :) hmm. it was a nice bonding session! we talked, eat and played silly games. drank too. and silly Kelvin, couldn't stop his addiction to that alcoholic drink. dong~ ok, admit tat i drank too. but im glad. im clear enough to tink tat drinking only brings about temporary relief from pain. anyway, it tastes terrible. stopped after my first cup. yeahh.. tat's bout it, i guess.
just tis week alone, we had lots of stuffs going on. well, last sat, we had our sch's fun fair, on Mon, we had the rehearsal for Tuesday's concert. And Tues, we had our Amor concert. yeah. it was freaking tiring. hmm.. the concert was laidback and simple. it's a love concert, u c. not many people turn up and i tink its a good thing. save my embarrassment. well, it din turn out well for me. the song is good. but my singing and the music was bad. shan't elaborate on tat anymore. wats most impt was tat, the consequence of it was terrible. nearly made the decision to stop singing. yeah. well, im lazy to explain.
today. was fine. everything was fine. till i saw the msg sent by him. sent him a msg to wish him happy new year. and he said who's this, coz he lost his whole contact list. well, i've got nothing to say. the worst thing tat could happen to one on happy chinese new year. one who was once closely related forgetting u. i chose not to reply. i've already said. ive got nothing to say. well, thanks for everything.
tainted.
Zac, thanks. u called me today. but i couldnt ans, coz i was bathing. u were always ther for me. nobody would even know that im sad. but strangely, it seems tat whenever i feel down, u would be able to sense it. its strange. but i call it a miracle. something tats between u and me. :D
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 2:05 AM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
was wrapped in my blankets. was still in my dream. woken up by Kor's action of placing sheepy on me. -_-"
yeah. i am tired. din wanna get out of bed. its really chilling. and im bout to freeze. i just want to snuggle in my bed with blanket over me. knowing tat this temporary warmth will fade away. when will warmth come to me again? (if you know wat i mean)
dun knoww. just felt moody the whole day. breakfast was a mixture of two diff types of corn flakes (remainers in the cereal box) and a miserable amt of milk. haha. followed by a bowl of yummy soup, corn with mushroom. wooo~
den, back to make holes in the tickets for the V'day concert in our sch, so as to attach strings to it. its such a boring, repetitive job to do. till i lost my sense of awareness. well. i finished it still, anyway.
sat in daddy's car. daddy drove us out. me, cher and grandmother. sat at the back, staring outside. thought of him throughout the journey. just felt. sad. cold. alone. when will the pain go..
anyway, tmr will be a better day. i'll be going to vivo. and i can see the ppl i miss so much. Haagen Dazs. Ice-cream. wher i long to be at. :)