yeah.. im working now. extremely tiring. and my feet is hurting damn badly. argh. its like swollen, i guess. nvm.
working is really fun, especially when ur a newcomer. everything is fun and interesting to u. but what i hated was the damn learning process man. nobody's there to help u. that's y i made that promise to always help newcomers! :) the guys were fun. really. stepping on my foot, playing wif water, hitting my head, etc.. its really fun. nvm. they mei da mei xiao k. haha. im older than them la. but i guess, i behave like one who is really younger. hmmm.
notice that i said "the guys were fun". look at the word "were". yes. today, i noticed the huge diff. hmmm. i felt so redundant or perhaps i shud say "feel", coz i stil do. perhaps there were lots of people today. and especially wif other people ard. i know. perhaps im just new and extra. they made me feel this way. i was really smiling all the way. but my sorrow got over me. i was bored and washed dishes about the whole day. really hate relationships and stuffs. coz if anyone's in a relationship, he or she obessed wif the one they lurv that they go completely oblivious to other stuffs. yes. its happening. those guys who fooled ard and played all the while were suddenly tamed when they c the one they lurv. i guess all of them there hav at least a partner la, be it a lurver or a fren. and its left wif me. the loner. damn. i wanna talk to the dishes.
its really sickening. so out of place. that i couldnt control my feelings. had to talk to Cheryl on the mobile phone. (coz im out, u c). im really thinking if i shud continue working. its just barely two weeks and im feeling this way. perhaps quiting is coming over to take over my mind. i dun care ! im going to whine. argh. i hate it!
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