aHHhhh. i dun care!! i wanna complain! hmph. haha. i sound like a sickening spoiled child. =p
well, but i dun care! Lalala~ guess what. i worked a Vivo City, a definitely crowded place la. initially, i was fine. i kept smiling and really wanted to do my best to help ard lo. but darn. i was so unfamiliar wif the place, especially not knowing where were the usual stuffs like ice, water, placed. i had to ask ard, u see. and of coz, i know i irritated several people. ESPECIALLY the AUNTY la! oh my god. i tink i ask her bout some things, and that happened to be the third time im asking i guess. and u know what she said? i tink she said something like "dun ask me la! dun irritate me!" she was really scolding me la. oh my god. i really felt out of place. i was already feeling damn extra, as the people there weren't as friendly as those at esplanade. and i felt so lost. damn. and i nearly cried. so i lowered my head to face the ground. and suddenly, guess what. somebody came to hold me and push me outside. im not sure if he or she caught the whole scene between me and the aunty. but if it was because of protecting me away from her, i tel u man. i dunno what to say, except that that kind gesture of being there for me really warmed my heart. seriously, when i felt so helpless, at least someone there cared. oh man. but i din get to c his or her face. coz my eyes were brimming wif tears and i looked down. i dun wan people to c. but i do hope to know who is that person. but perhaps, i tink i'll just not ask anymore. im seriously scared.
the AUNTY is a horrible monster. to tink that i still smiled at her all the while i entered the kitchen. argh. kindness doesn't pay of man. i dun care. i made this vow. if i ever become familiar wif everything there and have full experience, i swear that i'll guide any newcomer along the whole process of learning. i dun care! i've experience that state of being so damn helpless. and it a shity feeling. nv am i going to allow someone else to feel this way! dun care. hmph.
actually, for the rest of the day, i was so scared of that aunty. that everytime i wanted to step into the kitchen, i'll peep at the door first and if she is there but her back facing me, i'll rush in, throw away any rubbish as quickly as possible in hope that she doesn't see me. and rush off! haha. i know its lame. but i dun care. avoiding is also a form of protecting myself. and in this case, protecting myself from harshness and unfeelingness, if there is such word k. arghhhhhh. i dun like that aunty............ :(
but after that, my male colleagues were really nice. they were talking to me and laughing along together la. it was really fun! they taught me stuffs that i dunno. and lots of time, they were willing to open up and guide me along the way. thanks man. i felt sooooooooooo much better! they even knew that im scared of the aunty. haha. damn. and everytime i peep thru the door, sometimes they will come and help me pass the stuffs into the kitchen, so i dun have to face her. haha. thanks so much!!!! yay~ at the end of the day, it too, turned out really fine. my female colleagues were less talkative la. but at least they're still really nice people. yay~ everything was nice. except the aunty! hmph. haha. ok. forgive and forget. and the world would be a better place!
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