haha. ok. im now mesmerised by the beauty of life! its amazing to just tink bout how life can be at a point so damn lousy and the next day or perhaps even minute, a nice miracle just happen which brings so much happiness to life. haha. i lurv it. its the balance. its beauty. the ability to stay firm and wif determination, overcome all probs and at the end, the luxury that one receive as a gift from the heavens.
today's a fun day, ok, forgot to add, at work. its started off just as nice perhaps even nicer than b4. its a wonder, how simple things being somehow insignificant still have the ability to brighten ur day. haha. today, the manager, Christopher, was working. i tel u ar, his really a great manager. He lives at woodlands too. haha. Woodlanders! =p his ultra nice and polite and thoughful and the list goes on. dun think wrongly. he is our manager! we had waffle for breakfast! yummy~ c wat i mean by having a great manager??? and i chose a really nice ice-cream flavour to go along wif it! haha. Vanilla Caramel Brownie! hear the name and try to imagine how it taste. oh my god! its heavenly. I dunno, but the name gives me an inviting feeling. haha. its like "oh so yummy, come and eat me!" The chocholate related ice-creams are delicious too man. i tel u, taste the richness and feel it going down ur throat. Fabulous!
and the best part of the day! haha. I got a feel bout how its like to scoop ice-cream. and im totally in lurv wif it! haha. its really fun! i dunno y. its like a one and only opportunity! and i even served several customers despite my lack of skill! haha. but the ice-cream looks fine k! and i did my first banana split! wif real customers to test my product! its a great feeling. and i do hope they really enjoy it. the first time is always the greatest memory ever. :)
and my collegues are great. really. i lurv them too. Best! and of coz the ice-creams there! haha. come and visit me if u can! :) *hugs
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 12:42 AM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
yeah.. im working now. extremely tiring. and my feet is hurting damn badly. argh. its like swollen, i guess. nvm.
working is really fun, especially when ur a newcomer. everything is fun and interesting to u. but what i hated was the damn learning process man. nobody's there to help u. that's y i made that promise to always help newcomers! :) the guys were fun. really. stepping on my foot, playing wif water, hitting my head, etc.. its really fun. nvm. they mei da mei xiao k. haha. im older than them la. but i guess, i behave like one who is really younger. hmmm.
notice that i said "the guys were fun". look at the word "were". yes. today, i noticed the huge diff. hmmm. i felt so redundant or perhaps i shud say "feel", coz i stil do. perhaps there were lots of people today. and especially wif other people ard. i know. perhaps im just new and extra. they made me feel this way. i was really smiling all the way. but my sorrow got over me. i was bored and washed dishes about the whole day. really hate relationships and stuffs. coz if anyone's in a relationship, he or she obessed wif the one they lurv that they go completely oblivious to other stuffs. yes. its happening. those guys who fooled ard and played all the while were suddenly tamed when they c the one they lurv. i guess all of them there hav at least a partner la, be it a lurver or a fren. and its left wif me. the loner. damn. i wanna talk to the dishes.
its really sickening. so out of place. that i couldnt control my feelings. had to talk to Cheryl on the mobile phone. (coz im out, u c). im really thinking if i shud continue working. its just barely two weeks and im feeling this way. perhaps quiting is coming over to take over my mind. i dun care ! im going to whine. argh. i hate it!
i need lurv. :(
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 1:35 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006
aHHhhh. i dun care!! i wanna complain! hmph. haha. i sound like a sickening spoiled child. =p
well, but i dun care! Lalala~ guess what. i worked a Vivo City, a definitely crowded place la. initially, i was fine. i kept smiling and really wanted to do my best to help ard lo. but darn. i was so unfamiliar wif the place, especially not knowing where were the usual stuffs like ice, water, placed. i had to ask ard, u see. and of coz, i know i irritated several people. ESPECIALLY the AUNTY la! oh my god. i tink i ask her bout some things, and that happened to be the third time im asking i guess. and u know what she said? i tink she said something like "dun ask me la! dun irritate me!" she was really scolding me la. oh my god. i really felt out of place. i was already feeling damn extra, as the people there weren't as friendly as those at esplanade. and i felt so lost. damn. and i nearly cried. so i lowered my head to face the ground. and suddenly, guess what. somebody came to hold me and push me outside. im not sure if he or she caught the whole scene between me and the aunty. but if it was because of protecting me away from her, i tel u man. i dunno what to say, except that that kind gesture of being there for me really warmed my heart. seriously, when i felt so helpless, at least someone there cared. oh man. but i din get to c his or her face. coz my eyes were brimming wif tears and i looked down. i dun wan people to c. but i do hope to know who is that person. but perhaps, i tink i'll just not ask anymore. im seriously scared.
the AUNTY is a horrible monster. to tink that i still smiled at her all the while i entered the kitchen. argh. kindness doesn't pay of man. i dun care. i made this vow. if i ever become familiar wif everything there and have full experience, i swear that i'll guide any newcomer along the whole process of learning. i dun care! i've experience that state of being so damn helpless. and it a shity feeling. nv am i going to allow someone else to feel this way! dun care. hmph.
actually, for the rest of the day, i was so scared of that aunty. that everytime i wanted to step into the kitchen, i'll peep at the door first and if she is there but her back facing me, i'll rush in, throw away any rubbish as quickly as possible in hope that she doesn't see me. and rush off! haha. i know its lame. but i dun care. avoiding is also a form of protecting myself. and in this case, protecting myself from harshness and unfeelingness, if there is such word k. arghhhhhh. i dun like that aunty............ :(
but after that, my male colleagues were really nice. they were talking to me and laughing along together la. it was really fun! they taught me stuffs that i dunno. and lots of time, they were willing to open up and guide me along the way. thanks man. i felt sooooooooooo much better! they even knew that im scared of the aunty. haha. damn. and everytime i peep thru the door, sometimes they will come and help me pass the stuffs into the kitchen, so i dun have to face her. haha. thanks so much!!!! yay~ at the end of the day, it too, turned out really fine. my female colleagues were less talkative la. but at least they're still really nice people. yay~ everything was nice. except the aunty! hmph. haha. ok. forgive and forget. and the world would be a better place!
haha. have fun man. and i wanna work soon! :)
scattered petals of bloodroses ; 4:17 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
BoO! long time no c man. haha. well, yesh. i've been rather busy lately. smiles~
started of badly today. y?? i dunno man. nightmare-sore eyes-sweating-presenting-rushing-aching. haha. long process that i dun feel like elaborating.
but it ended of rather nicely. hah. contradiction. well, started work in Haagen Dazs. initially, i was shy, scared, etc. but after that, opened up and had fun wif my colleagues. its really fun. not in the sense where u get to smear whipped cream onto ur frens' faces, coz that would be deemed as commiting an unforgivable crime. =p but i had fun smilling all the way. haha. though i might look like a retard, i dun care k?? 100% commitment! haha. "Protect The Brand" hor!
worked as esplanade today. oh my god. esplanade's Haagen Dazs is fantastic. Its "OoooHhh sO cOzy". haha. im really getting used to the place and a sense of attachment made me not want to leave. however, Desmond transfered me to Vivo City. working there on Thurs. haha. actually, im really fine bout the place. wat im worried bout is the travelling time. i guess its like more than an hour. argh. nvm. Haagen Dazs at Vivo is definitely very crowded and that means, more experience. haha. yay~! anyway, luv to work at Haagen Dazs!
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