i hate today. practically nothing to do. experiencing situation of total boredom. someone save me.
dunno wats wrong. feeling bad and guilty, i guess. havent study the whole week. imagine, all the wasted time. dunno wat was i doing. damn. now, im again, reluctant to do anything. y? i dunno, i really dunno.
my com is on. i've open microsoft words, ready to do the gp reading threads. but after reading the question, i cant go on. i hate tis feeling. helplessness. useless.
wats wrong wif my head. i guess i slept wif my hair wet. damn. its all my own fault again.
lonely. feel tis way. attached to nothing, extracted from everyone, everything. look ard me. fading. its fading away. think about it. we're living in a world of illusions. we claim to be best of frens. but where am i when u need me? where are u when i need u. im talking to nobody. its illusions. we practically give everything a term, a name. but in actual fact, its just a claim. u can be my fren, my enemy, all that i can ever say. but they are all words. easily manipulated. we often say "i luv u, i miss u." but who knows its true? it becomes a cliche, which doesn't mean anything at all. stripped of its original meaning, lost its value. dead. it became words which are dead, lifeless and meaningless. thats y, choose words selectively. i only say them when i really meant them. others may cause them to lose its value. but im trying to retain that slightest bit thats left.
smile, like u've nv smiled before. like sunshine. drizzle and rain.
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